WEEE!!

i lazy to update....so just roughly tell what's currently going on
1)my new year sucks....really really sucks
2)two exchanges coming
3)band concert coming(anyone intersted can tag me)
4)SYF!!!!oh my goodness
5)got art coursework to do
6)got DNT coursework to do


AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!
people says sixteen is sweet.....but to me sweet sixteen is SUCKY sixteen.......
in other words i'm getting old and old is EWWWW!!!




to people who knows me ....i want presnts....nah ....kidding!!


better remember this date,especially my friends
1)14/o1(my birthdate)
2)30/03(SYF)



HAHAHAHAHA.............14TH JANUARY............HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i LOVE/LOATHE YOU MOM!!

today is such a fucking-asshole day.had to start the day badly because of mom.she gave me attitude since yesterday just because of the stupidest thing ever. i have to admit i am lazy,who didin't,it was raining yesterday morning and i was lazy to get up...duh human nature.so she was like shouting,bugging me to wake up and when i didn't,she went into the room and gave me two fucking painful slaps...what the fuck...i don't mind being slapped at,but the way she ask me to go to the shop was like commanding a maid instead....what did she think i 'm her maid is it??

then this morning,when i was about to go to band practice,she asked me to go to the shop.i was running late and i had to argue with her,but as usual MOTHERS always win so i had to go....seriously i was damn pissed off at her,but what can i do....i'm only a MAID...

i can't deny the fact that if other teenage girls who had mothers like mine would surely hate their mothers for ruining their teenage life,but love my mom a lot eventhough she's being a bitch for as long as i know,but if i wasn't around,nobody would do my job and she had to do them all by herself.forget about asking my brother and sisters to do them,they are just fuckingly cared about their damned life which doesn't even prove any happiness,at least not yet,but i don't see it coming

Mom,i wonder if i am really not around,would the rest of your children be bothered to do whatever you asked them to??would they even bother to help you??sometimes i wonder how would you survive with no one 's there to take care of you or just simply go to the shop to buy the things you asked them to,i know that all this while the stuff that i did is not enough to pay back all the hardwork you had done to take care of me and my siblings so we could grow up to be a better person than we had before....it just makes me wonder

before this year comes to an end,i just want to apologise to you Mom for all the mistakes i have done,for all the things i done that have made you feel like shit,for all the bad things that i didn't do,for all the things that you blamed me for and for all the wrong things that,God knows,will and might be happening in the near future and this coming new year and thank you for your scoldings,your beatings and all the bad stuff you had done to me just to make my fucking life a lot harder,because of all these...it only had made me a better person....thanks again

and last but not least,i wish you a good life and hope that your illness will be recovered....i hope to see you happy in the new year and i hope that you won't vent your anger on me and treat me like a lifeless ragdoll....i hate you but i love you even more....

Happy New Year everyone....
i just refused to complete my year with a bad end
but what the hell,my year is ruined anyway
now just don't feel like welcoming the new year.....

MATAHARIKU

agnes monica

december stuff!!!

hooorayy....im so excited about december

there are THREE extremely major events will be going on

first.....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY FATHER,BROTHER AND ALL MY AUNTS AND UNCLES WHOSE BIRTHDAY IS ON DECEMBER ITSELF===

second....
MY BROTHER IS GETTING MARRIED ON HIS BIRTHDAY...THAT IS ON 21ST DEC
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CUM HAPPY WEDDING DAY BRO!!

and thirdly....
MERRY CHRISTMAS(although i do not celebrate it....i don't care!!)





HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!!!

a string of attitude

i don't know how i feel right now
sad,angry,sorrow,worried.....i don't know
confusion,confusion
life can be annoying and irritating at times....
urgh....life sucks!!

why am i pretending to be happy
when that something doesn't make me happy at all?
how should i put it......hmmm
i wanted to tell but something...
a force or energy or undefined gravity
just keep on holding me back
i wanted to trust forward and let all out
speak my mind....
but i couldn't....

i wanted to scream and let loose of all things
i wanted to shout hey you stop being an idiot
you go around telling people about your damn life
Life isn't only about you,you and you
so go and fuck your ass off
and try to bother about those unfortunate people instead!!

screw you asshole....
idiotic people like you don't deserve my attention
no....you don't deserve any attention at all!

23rd November Night

i know the concert is like 10-12 days ago,but now then i get the chance to post abt it coz there's technical problems(lol)....Bradell Heights Symphony Orchestra concert at Victoria Concert Hall,with special guest appearance Mr Rasull as the flute soloist...thought of taking picture with him but didn't get the chance too...haha

Victoria Concert Hall,the stage

AFTER THE CONCERT......

Najmah....like a lost soul looking around....muahhaaha

me ....Najmah...najmah....Me

we went supper at MacDonald's

ain's/natasha's cheesecake.....yummie

last but not least.....band camp(last day)

like i said before and im gonna say it again....

im on top of her....she's on top of her and she's on top of her
we are all on top of each other....lol

random post

yesterday was fun!!with the exception of total humiliation at yuying sec,yesterday was not bad actually.....after the exchange my bro took me to the movies...yay!!!its been months since i last step into the cinema and we watch.....
i like to move it move it...he likes to move it move it...she likes to move it move it

we like to...MOVE IT!!

oh yar i've been dying to post this....finally remembered...ROAR IT OUT talent show last august

aidah,amir and me

amir dendeng....llol

the contestants,we got dancers,bands and singers