a string of attitude

i don't know how i feel right now
sad,angry,sorrow,worried.....i don't know
confusion,confusion
life can be annoying and irritating at times....
urgh....life sucks!!

why am i pretending to be happy
when that something doesn't make me happy at all?
how should i put it......hmmm
i wanted to tell but something...
a force or energy or undefined gravity
just keep on holding me back
i wanted to trust forward and let all out
speak my mind....
but i couldn't....

i wanted to scream and let loose of all things
i wanted to shout hey you stop being an idiot
you go around telling people about your damn life
Life isn't only about you,you and you
so go and fuck your ass off
and try to bother about those unfortunate people instead!!

screw you asshole....
idiotic people like you don't deserve my attention
no....you don't deserve any attention at all!