i LOVE/LOATHE YOU MOM!!

today is such a fucking-asshole day.had to start the day badly because of mom.she gave me attitude since yesterday just because of the stupidest thing ever. i have to admit i am lazy,who didin't,it was raining yesterday morning and i was lazy to get up...duh human nature.so she was like shouting,bugging me to wake up and when i didn't,she went into the room and gave me two fucking painful slaps...what the fuck...i don't mind being slapped at,but the way she ask me to go to the shop was like commanding a maid instead....what did she think i 'm her maid is it??

then this morning,when i was about to go to band practice,she asked me to go to the shop.i was running late and i had to argue with her,but as usual MOTHERS always win so i had to go....seriously i was damn pissed off at her,but what can i do....i'm only a MAID...

i can't deny the fact that if other teenage girls who had mothers like mine would surely hate their mothers for ruining their teenage life,but love my mom a lot eventhough she's being a bitch for as long as i know,but if i wasn't around,nobody would do my job and she had to do them all by herself.forget about asking my brother and sisters to do them,they are just fuckingly cared about their damned life which doesn't even prove any happiness,at least not yet,but i don't see it coming

Mom,i wonder if i am really not around,would the rest of your children be bothered to do whatever you asked them to??would they even bother to help you??sometimes i wonder how would you survive with no one 's there to take care of you or just simply go to the shop to buy the things you asked them to,i know that all this while the stuff that i did is not enough to pay back all the hardwork you had done to take care of me and my siblings so we could grow up to be a better person than we had before....it just makes me wonder

before this year comes to an end,i just want to apologise to you Mom for all the mistakes i have done,for all the things i done that have made you feel like shit,for all the bad things that i didn't do,for all the things that you blamed me for and for all the wrong things that,God knows,will and might be happening in the near future and this coming new year and thank you for your scoldings,your beatings and all the bad stuff you had done to me just to make my fucking life a lot harder,because of all these...it only had made me a better person....thanks again

and last but not least,i wish you a good life and hope that your illness will be recovered....i hope to see you happy in the new year and i hope that you won't vent your anger on me and treat me like a lifeless ragdoll....i hate you but i love you even more....

Happy New Year everyone....
i just refused to complete my year with a bad end
but what the hell,my year is ruined anyway
now just don't feel like welcoming the new year.....

MATAHARIKU

agnes monica

december stuff!!!

hooorayy....im so excited about december

there are THREE extremely major events will be going on

first.....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY FATHER,BROTHER AND ALL MY AUNTS AND UNCLES WHOSE BIRTHDAY IS ON DECEMBER ITSELF===

second....
MY BROTHER IS GETTING MARRIED ON HIS BIRTHDAY...THAT IS ON 21ST DEC
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CUM HAPPY WEDDING DAY BRO!!

and thirdly....
MERRY CHRISTMAS(although i do not celebrate it....i don't care!!)





HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!!!

a string of attitude

i don't know how i feel right now
sad,angry,sorrow,worried.....i don't know
confusion,confusion
life can be annoying and irritating at times....
urgh....life sucks!!

why am i pretending to be happy
when that something doesn't make me happy at all?
how should i put it......hmmm
i wanted to tell but something...
a force or energy or undefined gravity
just keep on holding me back
i wanted to trust forward and let all out
speak my mind....
but i couldn't....

i wanted to scream and let loose of all things
i wanted to shout hey you stop being an idiot
you go around telling people about your damn life
Life isn't only about you,you and you
so go and fuck your ass off
and try to bother about those unfortunate people instead!!

screw you asshole....
idiotic people like you don't deserve my attention
no....you don't deserve any attention at all!

23rd November Night

i know the concert is like 10-12 days ago,but now then i get the chance to post abt it coz there's technical problems(lol)....Bradell Heights Symphony Orchestra concert at Victoria Concert Hall,with special guest appearance Mr Rasull as the flute soloist...thought of taking picture with him but didn't get the chance too...haha

Victoria Concert Hall,the stage

AFTER THE CONCERT......

Najmah....like a lost soul looking around....muahhaaha

me ....Najmah...najmah....Me

we went supper at MacDonald's

ain's/natasha's cheesecake.....yummie

last but not least.....band camp(last day)

like i said before and im gonna say it again....

im on top of her....she's on top of her and she's on top of her
we are all on top of each other....lol

random post

yesterday was fun!!with the exception of total humiliation at yuying sec,yesterday was not bad actually.....after the exchange my bro took me to the movies...yay!!!its been months since i last step into the cinema and we watch.....
i like to move it move it...he likes to move it move it...she likes to move it move it

we like to...MOVE IT!!

oh yar i've been dying to post this....finally remembered...ROAR IT OUT talent show last august

aidah,amir and me

amir dendeng....llol

the contestants,we got dancers,bands and singers

Library Day!!

random post!!!!this vid was taken at frontier library sometime ago!!!so enjoy people......


ps*there's one part where it really hurts....wanna know which part??watch you idiot!!

I MISS YOU !!!

WOLFIE....WOLFIE!!!

where are you baby??miss u a lot.......

seconds and minutes and hours passed

days and months and years gone by

and all i could do is look at your pictures

just to ease the pain of missing you

I MISS YOU DEAR!!

Band Camp

hahaha band camp is fun,except for the fact that we can't actually stay overnight which will be more fun....because of that teacher....well don't wanna tak about him....anyways here is what i did on the camp

FIRST DAY
first thing the band members did was POP(passing out parade) the vid was funny
it was quite a sad occasion because the seniors are leaving ....the next thing we did was marching coz of competition year and after that lunch....since it was raining everyone was like damn hungry and Aidah was grumpy till she actually got the food coz we need to wait for the rest of the members
after lunch sectional all the way until 4 and then practised together with our conductor till 6
and then me ,Aidah and Natasha went to KFC to eat and we were all crappy and tallk crazy stuff BTW it seems that SOMEBODY is falling for someone again...and he has a new nick...CRABBIT!!!
then i went home coz i got something sooo urgent and left the two crazy ppl at the bus stop

SECOND DAY
it was the most tiring day ever.........got sectional till Mr Rasull called us for tutoring ...and guess what we had for lunch........McChicken and fries........and i was still damn hungry after that
as usual got sectional till 4 and then practise with conductor and i think i got a cut on my lips for blowing instrument for a long time
after that we (me,Aidah,Ruby,Najmah and Seri)went to bubble tea shop and then go home

the fun is coming.....the fun is coming

THIRD DAY
today's practise ended at 3 ++ and we had games and barbeque
we played blow wind blow and Murhani always the last ones to sit and she had to do forfeit...after that we played honeymoon(i hate this game but played anyway)
everyone had to sit in circles of twos and need to chase each other...lol
this time many alumnis had to do forfeit after that we introduced ourselves while waiting for the barbeque and we HAD to paly this stupid game of remebering evryones' names and if did nt remember have to do forfeit...then play the tree and squirrel game....erhh stupid game invented by idiotic Zavier...i have to admit...it was ironically fun
when we thought the barbeque was ready...it actually was not...so we sat around and do stupid stuff....like the 'dari kanan/kiri cepat joget' game(seri made this marching command)and other stuff like lying down on each others' stomach and being awkwardly connected ...like seri's feet on aidah's stomach and my head on her stomach so on and so forth and we took some pictures but i don't have it with me
the the barbeque came ....we had barbequed chicken,garlic bread,satay,sausages,crab sticks and so on...i ate so much.....we and some seniors were planning to play MAFIA at the quadrangle sice it was dark and suitable for that kind of game but of course we didn't because,first,it was late and second ha d to wait for Syafiqah who got lost on her way from Ngee Ann Poly(why are the hornists always got lost??)and thirdly the teacher in charge had to lock the school gate....


OVERALL it was a great day camp and im hungry for more....can't wait till nxt yr and i hope can stay overnight....well here is the POP vid....enjoy!!

diet pepsi commercial

hey,my blog is alive again!!!!okay this is my first post in centuries....not really.
well i found this vid while searching through videos on youtube....its damn funny and hilarious ....so enjoy!




ps*the drink is both healthy and not....so watch out if you're looking after ur health....wuahaha






welll...i might be posting videos for my posts so keep in mind that most of my posts will be a video post...okay people tata....

bye bye singapore!!!

hey guys.....whoa....okay its 3 in the morning right now....and i can't sleep coz in a few hours time im going to kuala lumpur for band exchange.....so excited and nervous...gives me spasm...well just wanna say to all my friends whose not going....especially my girl gang....i gonna miss you all alot....i promise to buy something for you guys okay....muackzz...i love you....bye bye....

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hello people....yay....one more week and im going to KL...can't wait.....anywaez im been dying to watch Twilight ....but too bad the movie will only be in theatres on December....woah....long way to go....by the way....since i love the Twilight series too much,i've been reading them over and over again....well actually the Twilight book only...haha...lol....anywaez..after reading the book and watching the trailer...there are a lot of parts missing and some of the scenes are wrong....for example....the scene where Bella asks Edward how old is he and how long has he been seventeen....well this scene should be in a car whereby Edward actually drives Bella home after she accompanies Jessica and Angela to Port Angeles to get their dresses for the dance ....thing......

well....whatever it is ...i stil can't wait for the movie......sigh....and Edward is super duper hott!!!


bye bye...love you all...LOL

FAKER!!!

i really don't understand why the school needs so much money....and they shouldn't build that stupid hall in the first place....they should build a conceert hall instead.....at least do something for performing arts.....all they seem to care is about SPORTS,SPORTS and SPORTS!!so fugging stupid...then ask the students to go around and ask for donation to build the facilities for that...hall....they should tell us to donate money for the earthquake victims in China and cyclone nargis victims in Myanmar instead.....at least we are helping to save the world....not otherwise...like wasting our money just for the school's sake....

and they should fully subsidise our camp trips and the band exchange trip...and other trips...and not asking the students to pay....i thought the school was rich??oops....sorry my bet....the school AREN'T rich at all...and why the heck must we pay for the handbook?i thought school handbook are supposed to be FREE?oh come on....crap....the handbook are supposed to be free....way before....

all the school seems to do is eat their student's money....that's unfair....and they should not take advantage of the art association and its students.....whenever they have exchange programmes and other kinds of activities....thay ask the art people to make souvenirs.....what are they thinking?they think that making this souvenirs are very easy and the art students have a whole lot of free time??they keep asking us to do things for free...that really is not good.....its not easy to design stuff....we need to crack our brains for ideas okay....they should give us credits for the hard work that we have done....not the opposite....

SAY NO TO FREE ART!!!
DONATIONS FOR DISASTERS VICTIMS SHOULD BE DONE....NOT DONATIONS FOR SOME KIND OF HALL FACILITIES THINGY!!!because these victims really need our help...we shouldn't wasting our time on other parts....we should save the victims.....
OVERSEAS TRIPS SHOULD BE FULLY SUBSIDISED BY THE SCHOOL COMMITTEE!!
AND...
AND...
SAY NO TO FREE ART!!!



PS*DAVID COOK WINS.....YAY....AHAHAHA!!!!

HELLO SUNSHINE!!

hello people....i know i know...its been a long time i didnt post rite??so sorry lar....dont feel like posting any last time....but hey...im BACK!!...okay....well today im gonna talk about something that is hot right now...that makes people everywhere talking about it....that is AMERICAN IDOL!!!lol....since the lat result show ...when Syesha Mercado were voted out(so sad)...its now the rivalry between the two Davids.....Cookie and Architecture....lol...but who's gonna actually win this prestigious competition??you decide....well here's some of their photos....



David Archuleta....what makes him got the potential
to win american idol??let me see....he's cute....capable
of singing very well...very well indeed....young...excellent
in singing ballet...can connect with the audience...capable
of making good records......;)



David Cook.....hmmm....how about him?well.....he's actually
good-looking,charismatic and eventually can bring the whole
house down....a very very good rocker.....has good voice and
extremely attractive(isn't he cute....)a potential rock star....


i can't actually deny that David Cook is my personal favourite....but i don't know....its kinda tough a decision to make....both have really huge fanbase..... i really really hope that COOKIE wins...may the best one wins...or should i say may the best man wins!!!




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